12.19.09
All I want for Christmas is you…
Well hello. I officially finished my first semester of college last night when I sent in my last paper online. I feel like this last semester has overall been a success. I’ve gotten good grades, met a lot of amazing people, and figured out a little bit more about myself. I’m very much looking forward to next semester..hmm.
So I’m sitting here right now watching It’s a Wonderful Life which is the best christmas movie ever. Well maybe it’s tied with A Charlie Brown Christmas… but anyway I’m watching it because both of the parties I was going to go to tonight are a no go. There is a blizzard! It’s been coming down pretty hard since 1:40 AM this morning, and I know this because last night after I hung out with the gang and after I spent twenty minutes driving around to find a 24 hour grocery store and after I bought some baking supplies I walked out of the Giant to see the first of the flurries falling from the sky. It was pretty magical. I always feel a little magic in the air when the first flakes dance their way down to the ground. You feel like a kid again, you get some hot chocolate, snuggle up. And for a few moments you forget all of your responsibilities and float on a fluffy cloud of white bliss.
Tomorrow I’m going to nyc, the first of three times this break that I’ll be going to the big apple. Should be fun? Well we’ll see. I grow more sure and less sure of things every passing day.
“What is it you want, Mary? What do you want? You want the moon? Just say the word and I’ll throw a lasso around it and pull it down. Hey. That’s a pretty good idea. I’ll give you the moon, Mary.”
12.09.09
Reasons to study.
HELLO
In the spirit of finals, I’d like to make a list of reasons to study:
1. You don’t have to dress up to have a date with your book.
2. Sometimes you learn something interesting.
3. You can get out of almost anything with the excuse “I can’t, I have to study.”
4. You are being responsible and will get a good grade.
5. It lowers your risk factor for spontaneous nervous breakdowns during an exam.
6. Your room stays cleaner because suddenly cleaning becomes a procrastination activity.
7. Because you didn’t read it when you were supposed to.
Look, I’m trying to motivate myself here. Actually, I’ve been quite productive over the past three days, with help from a sheet of paper entitled “Finals Study Schedule” upon which I methodically detailed every task I was to accomplish on any given day. Although I am not totally following it, it is helping me.
WOW most boring/nerdy post award. UHM in other news, I go home for Christmas break in 8 days. I’m kind of pumped to not have to worry about classes, but I’m not kind of pumped to leave here. I mean, it’ll be good to see the fam and relax and try to relearn the guitar. Also, Christmas is three way tied for first in the ranking of my favorite holidays.
Sigh, I’m sorry if you read this post and were disappointed, but I can’t expand more on the events of my life because I simply DON’T HAVE THE TIME. 
11.19.09
Cookies.
Right now I am sitting in the kitchen on my floor waiting for cookies to finish baking. Since the 4-6 kitchen did not come equipped with a cookie sheet, we used some of that ol’ cornell thinking and the cookies are baking to perfection on a frying pan. I’m getting a weird feeling that this will be my future.
So I actually am feeling BETTER today, and I know it’s not just in my head because I didn’t even go through all of the tissues that I pack in my backpack for mid-class disgustingness. Seriously though, I’m pretty sure I’m known to the people in my writing seminar as “girl who is always blowing her nose and then saying some dumb comment.” Seriously though, it feels like I’ve been sick forever, and they probably don’t remember a time when I wasn’t grotesquely blowing my nose in the middle of a discussion about the Dalai Lama’s view of communism.
In other, less disgusting news, Thanksgiving break is fast approaching. Who’s excited?! I am. A list of reasons why:
1. My computer will emerge from the break as a functional, working piece of machinery, as opposed to its current state which is sitting on my bedroom floor waiting for you to turn it on so it can laugh in your face with it’s ominous blue screen of death.
2. Thanksgiving is a great holiday. Come on. Mashed potatoes, pumpkin pie, family. THE END.
3. Black friday, aka mad bonding with the women in my family, awww yeah.
4. Preparations will be made for my winter break goals, which will be discussed at a later date.
On a more general note, I need to figure out something to do this summer. Something sweet, because I feel like I have done nothing sweet. I have gone to no foreign countries by myself with no itinerary to just experience the culture, I have saved no starving children in Africa, I have not moved out of my house and spent a summer whale watching, I have not explored rainforests, nor have I worked with the directors of Food, Inc. YES my friends, these are ACTUAL things that ACTUAL people do. I, on the other hand, am facing another summer working with my aunt, because my other, cooler job is now an impossibility. You can see why I feel the need to do something sweet. I just have to figure out what that is now.
Wellllllll not now. Now I have to take out the cookies, watch them cool, and offer them to the friendly folks of Dickson 4-6.
09.27.09
Fall-ing.
Hello. The Apple Festival was today in Ithaca, and it was such a reminder of so much from home. The whole apple theme just screamed WCO, and when I was drinking hot apple cider a small part of me wished it was a slushie even though it was cold out. Even the vendors there reminded me of weekend trips I would take with my mom and grandmother. I really miss those. Ithaca is a really cool chill place. We went into this used bookstore that I had been in once before, and I bought Greek Drama which is a book I’m pretty sure I’ve seen in Welsh’s room. I also bought Big Fish by: Daniel Wallace and Me Talk Pretty One Day by: David Sedaris. I know, I know it’s a good book. Everyone was telling me. That’s why I bought it.
So fall is here?! Seriously autumn is my favorite season. I want to get married in autumn. The trees, the weather, the clothes, the back to school. It’s wonderful. It’s a little different now because I’ve been at school for a month, but still. I love it. Yesterday was the first time I saw some autumn leaves this year, and it made me smile!
I really shouldn’t get distracted by the warm feelings I’m getting inside about the changing of the seasons. I need to lock myself in a library somewhere and study very hard for prelims. These are the first college tests ever and I can’t fuck them up. That would be bad. But for now it’s the weekend and I’ll worry about studying tomorrow. Tomorrow is Sunday, which means that today is Saturday, which is party day. And tonight I’m going to party, and forget about prelims until tomorrow around 12:30 when I wake up. Or maybe 1:30, because that is when I woke up this morning (afternoon), and who knows what will happen tomorrow.
He was in the habit of taking things for granted
Granted, there wasn’t much for him to take
And the only thing constant was the constant reminder he’d never change
Tight fisted with his compliments, it didn’t seem to bother him
that talk is even cheaper told in bulk
And the only thing constant was the constant reminder
He’d never change
09.18.09
Big Red.
Dear people of the world wide web.
I haven’t written in AGES because my life has just been too busy to do so. But right now I’m sitting in Trillium which is tied for first on my list of favorite places to eat on campus and I decided I would update a little.
That’s right, I said on campus, because now I’m in college. Usually in my life I psych my self up for things that I think are going to be so great, but then they turn out to be disappointing. Surprisingly not the case with this whole college thing. I’m really enjoying myself, and I’m growing as a person maybe. In the past I would always be burdened with massive amounts of guilt for things, even if they were better for me. Now it seems that I am really trying to realize what is best for me. When I don’t do anything wrong, I shouldn’t be guilty! Call it selfish, call it whatever, but I’m trying to shed a little bit of that ol’ Catholic guilt.
Classes? Stimulating. I really enjoy most of them. I say most because my writing class puts me to sleep and I am just further convinced I shall never be an english major. But Nutrition, Chem, and Psych are all awesome. Friends? I’ve actually made them! Surprise of the century. Homesick? Absolutely not. Parties? Yes, please.
I apologize for the obnoxiousness of that last paragraph.
Well I can’t sit here all day updating you folks! I have a chemistry problem set to do! And then class!
08.12.09
That’s okay cause I don’t wait for time.
I just want to go to college. Sometimes you feel like you need a fresh start, and I feel like that. First of all, working two jobs sucks ass, because even though you’re working seven days a week, you’re only working 4-5 days a week at each respective job, so it doesn’t even seem bad. One job cycle ends and another one starts. Terrible. I feel like I have no time to myself anymore! Every second of every day is reserved for something, which is opposite of my happiness. Sometimes all you want to do is do whatever you want to do. It doesn’t matter what that is, as long as it’s on your terms. LUCKILY this is the last week of this nightmare. Maybe I’m overreacting, but I under react a lot, so it balances out. There are no? second-of-all’s.
You know, sometimes I feel so alone when there are thoughts in my head that I don’t share with anyone.
Oh I don’t know if I said this on here, but I’ve stopped eating meat except fish. It’s a remarkably easy thing to do.
There are people I will never again see, and there are people that I haven’t yet seen, or have just met, that I will see for the rest of my life.
http://www.last.fm/user/dayofgray is back in business, by the way. It has been down for about a year because I stopped using my old computer and almost solely used my mom’s then-new laptop, but now since I bought a computer for school, I thought I’d better download that scrobbler.
Well I leave for school in nine days? Bizarre.
Cross cut to you – in amazement
Stumbling through the day
You tell me that time – never waits
That’s okay cause I don’t wait for time.
07.27.09
Because I don’t want to read Grapes of Wrath right now.
Ah yes dear reader(s), it has been quite a while since the last update. Why, do you ask? Because I fucking work EVERY day and can’t update with every exciting thing that happens in my life. The work situation makes my desire for it to be August 21st greater and greater, for you see, that is the day of my departure.
Yesterday morning I went shopping with my mom for shoes and then went to lunch with her and Brian. It was fun, and “oh, we just have to leave by 1:35 because I have work at 2:00″ WRONG I had work at 12, but for some bizarre reason I had thought my shift started at two. I walked in and was berated by two of the managers because this was not the first, but the second time I had did this. Why am I so unreliable? Not sure. It doesn’t really seem like something I would do really, but when you work two jobs and have endless things on your schedule, sometimes it gets confusing and what you think is two is really twelve. Needless to say, yesterday at work fucking sucked, mostly because I was beating myself up all day and tried to make sure I did all the bitch work.
To further worsen the work situation, everyone of my friends it seems works at this fun, six flags hair cuttery place that seems just like a ball of sunshine with no produce cases to break down, no floors to mop, no dishes to clean, just pure childhood fun. Sure, they don’t get leftover cheddar cauliflower, nor do they get to taste french omelettes, or eat whip after whip after whip, but they get 20% off at the mall. It’s okay, I appreciate my workplace.
In other news, MY BIRTHDAY was two Thursdays ago, July 16th. It was not just any birthday, for now I am eighteen, which means many things in the eyes of the world. I am an adult now, which means more responsibility. Sadly, all I’ve been doing since being eighteen is coming to work late and losing my wallet (yeah, I know).
My birthday brought presents, cake, family and friends. But it also brought a revelation, that I should become vegetarian. Wellllll, a pesco-vegetarian. Because I’m doing it mostly for health reasons and fish are fucking awesome. Apparently, animal protein isn’t all it’s cracked up to be. It’s been over a week and the change has been relatively easy. I didn’t eat that much meat anyway. It will be interesting in college, but I think I’ll manage.
24 days until college. Almost as importantly, 19 days till I stop working for the summer. I can’t wait till I go to college, except for the fact that I’ll miss a select few people SO MUCH. 
But everything else will hopefully be grand.
Till next time.
06.28.09
Speed (Up)dating.
WELL It seems as if I haven’t updated since the day before graduation (I know it says 6/11 on that last post, but it was actually 6/10). So since many things have occured in my life since then, and since I am incredibly lazy, I’ll make a list. Also, who doesn’t love lists? I’ll try to go in order for youall.
1. I am officially graduated from high school as of 6/11/09. Graduation was pretty fucking sweet. I mean I’m just at a great point in my life right now. Full of possibilities. I had a really nice dinner with my family. I love when we’re all together, especially Titus and my dad because I don’t always get to spend a lot of time with them.
2. Senior week was pretty fun. We went camping and just had fun. We went kyaking which was wayyy fun and we played beach volleyball and frisbee golf and had campfires and it was awesome. It was enjoyable and somewhat relaxing.
3. During senior week I got a call from WCO that I would only be working 10hrs a week on weekends. Which was understandable because I can only work this summer for eight weeks. But I needed to seriously find another job because this summer of all summers I need to be making mad money, so I asked my aunt if she needed help at her buisness, and she said she did. Now I work there Monday-Friday which is hella tight. It’s actually a great job so it works out well.
5. I bought some college cookbooks and it made me even more pumped for college.
4. Farrah Fawcet died and Michael Jackson! I’m watching this special on Farrah right now and it just seems like she was such an amazing woman. What a horrible thing that she died. And MJ was such an icon as well, I mean talk about talent, but his death isn’t as sad for me as Farrah’s. Is that horrible? Maybe.
5. I’m getting my wisdom teeth out on Monday. Meh, we’ll see how that goes.
Well, that’s some sort of a quick update. I should go take a shower and get ready for work.
